As I turned 50 this past month I decided to make a big deal out of it. Everyone else does, over-the hill and all that stuff, so I thought okay lets go for it. Let everyone know, have a party, go away a few days and celebrate. I even thought what the heck share what I have learned about life and marriage at the Military Wives Breakfast. So I did it all and I passed the big 50 mark (I assume the celebrating doesn’t go all year!)
I’ve definitely had a lot on my mind the past 4-6 weeks...taking a bit of a life assessment. Where I am, who am I, how is my God walk and where do I need to adjust, fine-tune and/or full-on change. I’ve been thinking about not only where I am, but where I have been. As I thought back, I wondered whether I would want to re-live time that has passed. Would I want to rewind my life? What would it be like to change some of the past decisions I’ve made. How different would life now be if I had the chance to apply all that I know now to my life back then? Surely the course of my life would be dramatically altered.
Of course the more I thought about it, the more convinced I was that I wouldn’t change a thing. As I think about some of the decisions I’ve made, there are certainly things I wouldn’t want to share...things I am not proud of and prefer to keep imbedded deep inside (things from my pre-Jesus days, so to speak :-)) And as much as I might want to have a chance to right those wrongs, everything that has happened in my life brings me to the place where I am right now. Each step I took, each decision I made, each and every action are woven together to create the life I now know. While I may not be proud of each individual choice I've made or thing I’ve done, they're woven together into a tapestry that is my life. I heard the analogy once that every tapestry has a wrong and right side. The back is where all the knots and mixed up threads hide. When you turn it over, it can be amazing to see how all of those random pieces of thread work together to become something beautiful. That’d be my life now – beautiful.
So each night as we go to bed we get to rewind the clock, turn back out lives. Because as the dawn comes and we face a new day, we have the opportunity to do things right, to make good choices and make wise decisions. So today – start fresh, and do it right.
